Saturday, October 28, 2006
I just talked to daddy on the phone. Yes, I cried again, and you can guess why. Its about the church thing again. I tried to make it not obvious that im crying while talking to him as he sounded real sad. I know whatever that he does is for my own good but this time I really wanna make decisions myself. I enjoyed so much yesterday, indulging in every thing I did, for the first time, I felt ever so happy. Why cant daddy just understand. I seriously cannot just sit down and talk to him bot this stuff, cos whenever i do that, I'll start weeping. In just one single day, I made so many more other friends, and they are really really very nice. I need professonal help, how do I let daddy know that I wanna be a christian without having to hurt his feelings? And with all those things going in the church, I think I can never backslide, provided I am even allowed to be part of the Church. ):
feel the beat. [11:17 PM]