everything in my life is so messed up at this point of time.
so tell me.
how am i suppose to study with chunks & chunks of rubbish piled up to skyhigh?
my life is so screwed.

im sorry.
but i bet you'll just heck care.
we need to talk.
& that lucky day will be tmr.

ohmyohmy.
things arent working out.
nothing is!
i can't control my tears okay!
i cannot. i cannot. i cannot!
wth.
i thot things would end in the perfect way, but obviously!
im sooooo wrong!
just whats wrong with me.
i mess everything up!
fcuk.
i seldom say this in my posts.
but its just out okay!

theres exam tmr, & ive bloody not studied yet
everything is so wrong.
my mood is like..
im like nothing okay
like fossil fuels in the air floating. well at least my heart is!
okay. whats that.
im not in a clear state.
im fainting. yes i am!

NOW. im truly sorry OKAY!
you went off9 just like that.
i cant handle things.
i need someone!

im so gna fail science. boo. geog was fine.

I was out of my mind then! IM SO SORRY.

haha, right, after school today, me, theo, mich, ryan & mark stayed back to.. erm.. "study"? (:
it was cooooool, fun & enjoyable. yayism, too bad ariel gotta leave early.

i love leaving trademark on ppl. haha. ;D
piggy rocks! ;D

argh, gna study for hist later. ):

you never understand whats going on in my mind.
but he does.
& i love him for that. <3
im not trying to compare.
but thats the truth.


he's just there... waiting.
iloveyou(:

(:
i think im truly in love!
that was random.
but i like it.

oh shit.
i haven study for CT yet. hoooooray!
im gna start later.
i fell asleep while studying on my bed ytd. (around 2-5)
then at night, i tried studying, i fell asleep again. -.-
walaooooo.
so im gna start today.
throw my hp & com aside. (like i can) (:
i was online till 2 ytd. logging in & out is soooooo coool! (:
erm. was talking to astrid. about later & now.
i prefer now cos.. who noes what might happen later?
a car might just come and bang you down. or or or!
a robber take gun come yr house, & blahs.
you get my drift. so..
now is sooooo much better(:
i noe astrid will say YES! xDD

reply to tags:

leon: haha, no! i can't enter yr blog lah. its like.. whole thing black. I noe, you ban me from yr blog! >=(

huimin: i got say its cool meh? oh yah. i did -.-

gary: ;D?

astrid: you too you too! muacks! LOL.! i still prefer now to later(:

zhiyin: linked(:

jet: huh? i don wanna reply u.

edited:

today was cool, cos there's PE ;D
haha, that was random.

anyway, i stayed back for the stupid art today.
we had to finish the 2 layouts for the cd cover & create a slogan for it. grrr.
everyone had to think, & rethink, then rethink again, cos tan mui mui rejected almost ALL slogans.

some stupid ones:

"the famous four"
"4 as 1"
"slow rock rocks!"
"may the music be revealed"
"get into the groove!"
"F4"

there are lots more retardeds one. its just that i can't rmb. haha. be it stm or whatever.
& how did i come up with this retarded ones? cos gary & jonah asked me to help them think, & so i wrote down what comes into my mind. in the end, all rejected. berry good. ;D

i settled for, "to come as one"
i think. (:
i got stm lah. aiyoooo

after staying back for art, we're suppose to stay for IT.
shiat. i hate it when i have to stay back for lessons.
they just. suck in my opinion.
yupp. so i stayed to finish up my poster.
then michelle came along with a helper. so unfair. she didn't even do anything. im not complaining tho.
i just feel so left out.
she & georgina. astrid as well. blending with their seniors. its like im not suppose to be there, but i am there! oh, i don make any sense.

after finishing my poster THEN i realise ariel & huimin have left. OH. how great.
i am officially a lagger. rejoice. not.
i can't believe they left without telling me lah.
i double-checked with weilin, they didn't even tell me they were leaving.
by right, i normally should be emo-ing.
but then. i was told not to be. ahhh. im so obedient ;D
but again, huimin helped me. so. forget it. massive pangseh. pfft.
i was left alone with weilin, hongyou, asha, clarissa & chiawmin. (all the lingays, ashgays, haha)

ohmy, hell lotsa thank to weilin lah. she helped me with the poster. ALOT!
as in help me undo all that. but i designed the thingy myself. & im pleased with it. (:
after that. i went home lah. erm. DUH~
im being lame. but but but!
im being me(:

all i want is for you to listen:








Listen to the song here in my hearta melody I start but can't complete
Listen to the sound from deep within
Its only beginning to find release

Ohh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turnedInto your own, all 'cause you won't listen

[chorus]

ListenI am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened
There was someone here inside
Someone I thought had died
So long ago
Oh I'm screaming out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed
Aside or turnedInto your own
All 'cause you won't listen

[chorus]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what
I'm feelingI'm more than what
You've made of meI followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened
I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving onIf you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start, but I will complete
Now I am done believing you
You don't know not what I am feeling
I'm more than what you've made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me

But now I got to find my own - my own

oh yesh!
ytd i received lotsa angbaos. ;D
HAHA.
there's alot of photos taken but im lazy to upload them here.
view them frm my friendster profile. (write me a testi!)
SHEEEZ ;D

http://www.friendster.com/15822965

enjoy! ;D
OH, im not sad. thanks to mark! =P

Oh man. I miss my ex-tutor, ms jilynn toh.

im told to update. -.-

oh right!
happy chinese new year!
hoho! angbaos & more angbaos ;D
actually, i alrdy receieved one ytd. heh heh.
i'll stuff myself with oranges & oranges, ba gua & ba gua, pineapple tarts & pineapple tarts. ;D
i bet i'll be sick when school re-opens.. with sore throat. ahem ahem

ytd night, i went to the temple to pray while everyone is asleep -.-
i went to pray at around, 2am.
i reached home at 5am.
wth right!
but then, its once in a year, so...
i hate those joss sticks, they gv me the effect of cutting 2 onions together. pfft.
its so crowded & stuffy, i almost fainted.

its new year.
im gonna stay at hm and wait for ppl to bai nian, here at my house. haha. jk.
im gonna wait for ppl to sms me =XXXXXXXX
haha.

i didn't buy a lot of new clothes you know. they are mostly knee length dresses. xDD
& i need a new bag. my old ones are so torn & tattered. im lying.
ohhhhh! its just an excuse to get a new one alright.
they are like at least 10 months old! =P
i'm so jealous of huimin, she got so many new bags. grrrrr.

after chinese new year, common test will start. OMG.
i didn't even study. i mean, not when all the teachers in school are boring.
i think the only subj i can pass is maths.
yes seriously, maths.
im always weak in maths, but now i actually think i can pass, or probably acheive an a1.
haha, thanks mr gan& mrs lim. they rock ;D
well, the rest of the subj..
forget it man~

i mean, talk to the belly! xDDD

We got out of TK today early for our good GCE O level result.
I love sec 4s. ;D

I got chased out of the classroom today for slopping greeting.
I was merely reading the paper while greeting lorr.
FIRST TIME EH. pfft. ruin my never-kena-chased-out-of-classroom de status.
He's so messed-up.
But its okay.
I have a friend that cheered me up ;D

After school.
Huimin & Ariel went to Marina Square I think. We didnt exactly ditch them 'cos they said they WERE gonna go back to their pri school. I was already planning to go out with Michelle, so yah.
While waiting for Michelle's choir to end, I went to tkp. Sharmane tagged along too & we had wonderful chats. ;D

12plus we returned to tks, and we went to tm together.
We took neoprints together, & I can say that, I love every photo taken partly cos the machine is fabulous. You can combine alot of photos together with diff sizes. ;D
I'll post it ASAP after Michelle scannned it. ;D

TM's chicken wing rocks! gagagagaga. hah.
Michelle's my papa.
Sharmane's my mama.
I'm nana. ;D

-

Haha, refer to previous post:
Jealous? Maybe?
Its refering to ME jealousing, not you. Lol.
You changed.

Oh. I didn't post about Valentines' Day ytd.
Thats 'cos I have tuition at night.
How pathetic can that get?

Anyway, thanks for all the presents I received.
I think they are..

Huimin
Weilin
Sharmane
Michelle
Chiaw Min
Ryan
Leon
Astrid

Haha, thats all I can rmb, sorry if I missed you out. ;D
I'm still waiting for sunflowers. (JK!)
Yes, I prefer sunflowers to roses.
Asha got a sunflower lah, Im sooooo jealous. pfft.

Ariel actually broke Huimin's present.
Thats already very bad. & she still went to use the broken glass to cut her wrist. She mad, insane, retarded, crazy & lunatic. Altho it kinda all have the same meaning. xDD
I can't believe I actually have a deranged lunatic as a friend. *faints*

I cut myself during d&t. Stupid filing.

After school, me & michelle went to TM with ahem ahem.
Leon came too, & we took neoprints today.
I swear he's damn gay. HOHO~
But I like his jacket. xDD

Today's a very sweet day too.
'altho i had a very bad headache working thru my lit assignment the night before.
Hah, when that ms teo said that we could pass up on wed today. -.-
Thanks man.

I think I'll fail my IT poster.
I just... lack inspiration. ;D
After IT, Sharmane & Astrid was like saying,
"butterflies are made up of butter"
in the bangla way. I swear its damn funny. They were trying to imitate zhangxin btw.
We made up more:

"Houseflies are houses that can fly~"
"Sharmane-fly is the shermaine that can fly~"
"& Mr Ngoi is the pig that can fly~"

My god, I hope Mr Lee doesnt blog-hop till my blog.
YES. OUR PRINCIPAL.
Scary right.
Leon told me that Mr Lee reads his blog & went around asking ppl:
You got read Leon's blog?
So scary!
& Leon linked me.
I wonder what he does in his office everyday, hmmm. BLOG HOPPING. great. ;D

Michelle pon-ed school today btw.
She came to school at 3 today just to collect her books. So guai. ;D
We stayed back together with Leon to watch the soccer match, TK vs BEDOKNORTH.
We thrashed them, 9-0
They're just plain lousyWe're just good at soccer. ;D

Match Leon & Huimin together.
Put the lime in the grape. (sounds sick!)
& you get: perfect match.
Huimin found the PERFECT solution to shut Leon & his egoness up.
All you have to say is either one of the followings:

"Leon, I love you man!"
"Leon, you're so cute!"
"LEON, I LOVE YOU. SHUT UP."
"LEON, I LOVE YOU, YOU'RE THE CUTEST BOY I'VE EVER MET."

I comfirm/guarantee you (plus chop!) leon would gv u a look and turn away.
At most he'll show his sweaty palm and say, i don wanna talk to you. go away. ;D
3 cheers for huimin.

I fixed ryan's specs today! I can't believe i did it tho. his specs screw came off due to soccer.
& you noe what I did? I bet you don't.
I used 2 staple bullet and coil it around & tada! the spec can function again. COOOOOL huh? ;D

I realised smth today: Joshua looks sexy while playing soccer. Captain eh. My "korkor" ;D

OH OH OH.
Irreplaceable by beyonce rocks!
To the left, to the left~

ciaos ;D
Jealousy? Maybe?

I just realised that mrs lim have the same pair of shoes with diff colour. As in same design but just diff colour to fit different outfit. haha. I swear its dang funny.

ytd, i went to get new year clothes with my mother. i love every piece, don't ask me why. =D

I'm lazy to type MORE as Im doing my literature assignment now. SORRY. =XXX

**
Some things aren't meant to be spelt out.
So don't force.
Just let things fall into their correct position.
I swear.
That way you won't get hurt.
I mean it.
You aren't aware what's happening. What bullets are firing straight at you.
But I do. Trust me for once. Will ya?

!!!
Its the day of the month.
& Im suffering.
Okay. Enough said.

Im so shocked by my sister.
I was bathing.
Naturally the door is locked, till she came in.
She used a COIN to open my door.
She stick her head inside and asked me..
"eh, how to link people in my blog ah?"
I told her I would help her with it later.
She said okay, and she used the coin and locked the door back.
I was like -.-
My house is only filled with girls. So her action is kinda normal.
Don't be too shocked. (:

Lemme tell you what Im gonna do for the rest of the day:

1) Do notes for lit proj. Will get more from theodore on monday(:
2) Do cheena jianbao
3) Read chicken soup.
4) Make my bed.
5) REVISE ALL SUBJ! Remind theodore to put MY notes inside his bag. xDDDD


Right. Im off.
Ciaos.

i've not been blogging for the past few days. & im sorry.

i did not stick to my dieting plan. boooo.
i ate fish, wedges, macs & even kfc!
my god.
i must strictly adhere to my plan now.
or i'l turn into a pig even before chinese new year arrive. *gasp*
xDDD

i came back from school just now, and went to nap at around 2.45.
i woke up at 7.15..
thinking that i slept the whole day.
and woke up up the next day.
haha.
you get it?
i think you don't.
nvm.

today during pe, me and huimin bang into each other chest on.
hurts alot. & we both fell on the ground. haha.
we were playing netball.
& i could shoot long range. cooooool huh(:


im hungry.
dinner.
ciaos.

!!today's Asha's birthday
06/02/93
so coool right?
all you have to do is flip it over...
02/06/93
& you get my birthday!
cooool huh. =D

today's lvl test for maths and science werent that hard. I knew how to do most of the question. & most probably, I'll pass. (:

I love reading chicken soup. get over it. (:
get me one for my birthday! the teens one or whatever that doesnt concern mother's love or blahs will do! =PPP

anyway, the oranges i gave to mark are melting according to him. haha. like just how oranges melt? mark's crazy, insane, retarded and nerdy. let me teach you a new term, i made it for mark. tote = totally oblivious to environment. (:
that's mark!

i'll hate bugs from today onwards.
you noe what happened? i tell you what happened.
i was doing my chinese si han when paesson called me and pointed to a corner of my desk, where my hand was. i turn and looked down. blooooody hell. it's a 6-7cm long black bug with feelers moving all around its body. i screamed(not really that loud like huimin's) like some crazy banana on loose. everyone was looking at me lah. dang paesson. he's building happiness on my expense. pfft.

qixiang seriously need to have a new haircut 'cos he's current one looks as if it's been chewed up by a puppy. mdm faridah, ms jean na, mrs lim, practically all the teachers was shocked by his hairstyle. why would someone want to cut his hair up till this stage just to save pathetic 8$ for some other stupid stuff? most prob is for lan. grr. talking abt money. i lost 10$ today! im pissed off.

i'm going on diet. byebye cutlet, fish, hashbrowns, icecream, kfc, mac, fried chicken & wedges!
within 3wks, i'll lose 2kg.
peers, control me! (:

yupp. jinquan just told me smth interesting.
chew a mentoes while gulping coke, you'll die.
because the CO2 in the coke reacts with the CO2 in the mentoes. and blahs blahs.
someone actually died from doing so.
sad.

People should NOT be addicted to LAN.

More & more people are getting addicted to lan for whatever stupid reasons.
I find it ridiculously funny. Especially when it comes to just a stupid, lame and idiotic bet.
First, you gotta waste cash & time to LAN, you get not enough sleep and turn into a geeko next day in school with MAJOR wugly eyebags. Your eyes will be damaged 'cos of the dark dark room for LAN, causing you to wear specs or whatever. If you're already wearing one, good luck man. If you're very very very addicted to LAN to the stage whereby you can don't eat don't sleep, feel very uncomfortable without LAN-ing.. Most probably, you'll suffer from malnutrition, insomnia and then you'll SHRINK! Not only that, your studies will drop. Then you'll get kicked out of TK if you still don't do anything abt your major addiction. Shouldn't you be addicted to something else, like Leon or whatever. But why LAN?! Get addicted to Naruto like Mark, at least that's better than LAN-ing. People. get a change. If you really can't resist the temptation, come to me, I'll give you a box in the face then I'll ask my cliques (which means huimin, ariel, michelle, sharmane, mark..) to bitchslap you out of your dreams.

pfft. I'm so pissed off now. Sorry.

ytd after tk's family day, theo, ryan, mich, ariel & huimin went to my hse.
at first, ryan only wanted to do his blog in my hse and then go lan with theo after.
but surprise surprise.. they did not but stayed in my hse till 6.30.
hoho.
we talked alot of crap. so sad ariel and huimin gotta leave so early.
oh yah! & that theo went to talk alot of crap with my account online. if you ever receieved instant msgs like i love you. you know, its not true (=

right, im gonna be a very guaikia today. im gonna revise for the maths and science lvl test conducted on tues. (=
but if my family's going out, i wont be able to study, which is bad.
'cos i need alot of revising to ace those test in order to win jeremy in that bet.
whatever it is, i'll still squeeze time out for revision.
so most probably, i wont be online-ing.
IF you ever see me online, nudge me and scold me for not studying, okay? (=

thanks in adv. xDDD

I love today. 'cos today rocks to the core.

I'm trying to control my temper now.

My mother complained that I made a whole mess after eating my lunch. Which is not true. Then...

SHE MADE ME WIPE THAT FCUKING TABLE FOR 10 TIMES.
That's like insane can. I mean, once or twice is fine with me. but 10!?!?! A bit the..
The table is already CLEANED.
SPOTLESS.
Dang her. pfft.
Besides that, she keep shouting at me for God knows why reason.
I really can't stand her attitude. I can't believe I actually lived with her for 13 years.

Phew, I'm fine now. ((:

I miss Ariel. She pon-ed school again. She's sick 'cos of me. But its not my fault, she wanted to lick my spoon. Ariel.. come back.. come back.. Wuuuuuu. Haha. I'm insane. I'm thrown into the cold palace by Emperor Lee for womanising with Astrid. Haha. I'm so so so sorry HuiMin for angering you till your cramps & issues all surfaced. SORRY. ASTRIDHUIMIN, I LOVE YOU <3



xDDDD
Im so gonna get killed by Astrid.



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