i've not been updating, i noe.
& the reason why:

1) my father nag me to study once i reach home or when i switch on the com. it's like less than one minute online, i gotta go offline. -.-
2) & as if thats not enough, my mother have to add on blabbering nonsense to my father which is completely not true for crying out loud.
3) & so. everyday is. study, Study, STUDY! till i fall asleep..

pfft. okay, anyway, since he's in a gd mood today, i shall take this chance to update.
righto.
normally, at this time, i will be slping like a pig. xD
but now, im widely awake. why?
ever since my father stop working, everything's happening the opposite of the normal.
i woke up at 9 this morning, with my father sitting bsd my bed. wth, i totally jumped up in shock. =/

he went to make breakfast:

1) one youghurt cocktail (some kinda italy style)
2) 2 roti prata kosong
3) beehoon noodle

then he went to cut his hair, coming back with 2 big plastics of food. & i have to finish all of them. i think he got some kinda stomach prob, it's like less than half an hour, hes hungry again. & there's still lunch later. Oh my sun, its not a wonder that i get fat.

but he's leaving for HK this monday. hoho (:

right, anyway.

we're gna change english teacher.
hongyou's mother is gonna write a letter to whoever appealing to change english teacher. (:
i don see mrs lim, ms ang, or ms toh having any probs with us.
even the new teacher, ms ang is also okay with us, so what's her prob?

my parents didn't go for the parent's meeting session last night.
they last min no mood, don wanna go -.-
im not complaining tho ;D

that's all folks. ;D

(P/S: refer to huimin's blog for the most fascinating photos in the universe(: )

&& huimin!
you better rejoin netball or i will take the winnie the pooh in your room & hack it into hundredthousand pieces!

let's just put it this way.
the barrier that separates the boy& the girl just won't go away.
& i think it never will.
boy's moodswing is like, roller coaster. THAT unpredictable.
& i think the guys never understand the girls.
nvm lah. just forget it lah.
& i still thot that, happiness would last for a few days longer before disappearing into thin air.

how i wish, im still in pulau ubin having hard food to eat, having not enough shower time, & the rain pouring at me. at least those time, im happy. just think about, the campfire. im not saying now i very sad or whatever. i admit, last saturday's hangout at tm was great. & im happy. but everything's just different now, cos your mood reversed everything.
monday you were still fine. but what happened?

but nvm, it's okay.
im still, the old eileen, i hope (:
all i ask for is for you to be happy.
& really, that's all.

PHEW.
today's such a busy day.
i was out with michelle, sharmane, theodore&joseph. tm.
erm, me, dore, & mich met up in school first.
me&dore were waiting for mich to come out from her choir which was supposedly to end at 12, but due to her seniors she was left off at 12.45 -.-

while waiting for mich.
dean just popped out from nowhere.
our mission in trying to make him go with us failed. ):
he rather watch movie with some other ppl than us, thats just so sad lah.

the three of us were being very lame, we were 2 metres away from each other, but we are all conferencing.
after mich came out, we took a cab to tm, we didnt wanna make shar&joseph wait longer =/

WTH! my mother called me & scolded me in the cab. stupid lah. i can hear her without sticking the phone to my ear. she found out that i forged her signature, & all those blahssssssssssssssss.
pfft, i can't believe she actually check my school bag lah! thats so....

after we reach tm:

1) went to the mrt station to find shar&joseph. JOSEPH'S SO TALL. taller than theodore. muahahhhahahahhaah xDDDDDD

2) bought movie tickets, mr bean's holiday.

3) had lunch at the foodcourt. dunno who, went to buy some ice thingy from the ice kacang bar, & a cold drink for lunch. then afterwards keep rubbing his hands together, complaining that its cold. i mean, who eats that for lunch. heh xD
[hint: from VS =X]

4) was in the theatre, "slping".

5) after the movie, we went to take neoprints. xDDDDDDDDDDDDD
errrrrrr, not going to go into details. you noe, i noe, thats enough (:

6) had dinner at mos burger. after that, i took a cab home with dewdong.

i was alrdy very tired upon reaching home, due to the lack of sleep, yet my family had to drop the bomb on me. they wanted to catch a midnight show. i had to go. and that's cos my father just came back from italy. so being a very very obedient daughter, i dragged myself up despite my muscle aching in protest, just to be a lightbulb. (:
we watched just follow law btw. its dam funny, oh but whatever im still tired!

after the movie we went to have supper at the geylang area. by the time i reach home, it was alrdy 2.30am. ZOMGWTF.

yupp, i fell asleep almost straightaway, but was shook up at 2.40 by my mother just to shower. right, i finally got to bed at 3.15.
thankgod.

the next day, 8 O`CLOCK! THE STUPID CONSTRUCTION GOING ON UPSTAIRS GOT TO WAKE ME UP. I WAS SO DAM PISSED OFF. !@#@&^*&)&*&##@#@@^#!

whatever man, talk to my belly.
im gonna study for chinese test tmr & THEN GO TO SLEEP. & no one is to disturb me! disturber akin to death.

(don mind my english. its so crap. but only for this post, cos i really am tired. ): )
now, ciaos.

had to stay back to finish art today.
tan mui mui booked the com lab till 4.30 -.-
so there was no way to get out of that damned place.
i was so fed-up with photoshop cs, cos the stewpid wand tool serve no purpose in my pic.
my lines werent joined up at all. so. you noe. argh.
but luckily, theres mark&qixiang to help me. hoho.
so it was done in just a while, i just slept bsd them while they helped me.
im seriously tired can.

after me, shar&huimin finish, it was alrdy abt 3.
huimin left, so that leaves us with, me, shar, mark, jonah, & some other not-in-our-clique-but-in-our-class-boys. (:
e.g. gary, guanming, zhenyuan, jinquan&bobbi
wonder why huimin nvr stay back.

the school was extremely weird without landers having their tranings on friday.
well, at least the sec2s werent there.
only sec1s. & you noe, fresh landers arent that powderful yet. xD
so they kinda make no diff xDDDD

right back to topic.
we were fooling like some retardedd people.
& the guys like to camwhore. (WOW!)

some photos:



jonah's the gayest of all! he told me to take this down. gay fag.




i told you jonah's GAY! he just love to take foto.



now, really. stop it.
he took this himself with shar's phone, gay or what?



then it began to poured. mark just went for his tuition then. i bet hes drenched frm head to toe.
before that, we were all playing american football/soccer/netball.
kinda fun. (:



mark(:



michelle, she popped out from nowhere. ohoh, we were buying green tea(:
i look lehtarded, dont mind me xD
& i bent down k? im taller than michelle!



Im taller than jonah! yes yes yes!



normal people: to the left! to the left! (extreme left the most normal xD)
weird/retarded/spastic people: to the right! to the right! (:



we were wet. look carefull okay? thats sharmane, not some other guy. -.-


sad;middlefinger;happy

we camwhored alot today, cos of mark, jonah, & sharmane.
uber gayyyyyy -.-


-

i was suppose to go to tm with the landers & michelle tonight, until michelle couldnt make it. ahhh, long story, now i gotta go out tmr instead.
cant wait? (:

"some relationships just fall into the abyss and never rise again. while some go in and someone comes and pulls them back up. i dont know about this relationship that eileen has, but i sure hope she stays strong and dont EVER falter in her life living. its saddening to see her like that. my meimei. she cried on me today. shes really hurt. but the problem is settled now i suppose, i dont plan to go into the details. "

I SWEAR JOSHUA'S COOL. ;D
thanks alot man.
i cried & poured out to him totally.
altho, i kinda murdered him & make him look paiseh. cos other ppl will think that he bully me. haha. & others that i wanna thank: astrid, ariel, ryan, joseph, sharmane.

ryan's so emo.
& i find myself using words that ppl used on me. =/
haha, anyway, cheer up boy(:

i noe everyone's worn out.
so i wont, talk to you bot the topic of him to y'all anymore. not as in totally not.
but a whole lot lesser.
sorry guys.
im outta this mess.

1) slept at 3am, that's fine.
2) getting jealous worn out, that's fine.
3) losing all 3 netball matches, that's fine.
4) failing d&t with an e8, that's fine.
5) vomitted, that's fine.
6) emo-ed, that's fine.

i just noe that, im tahan-ing all this crap.
well, not all of the points but, im just very tired lah.
sometimes i hope i can wake up with just nothing to care about.
im just gonna gv & take now. its okay if you take but don give, wont dwell into it longer.
im just gonna, you noe, stop everything my mind is revloving around now, or i swear you're gonna get more & more pissed with ppl telling you to do this & that, resulting in the ending i never wished for. okay?
i don need much, just ask around (okay, ask michelle -.-), one msg can make my day(:
girls eventually are still girls.
we seriously.... don't expect much. but you just don seem to get my drift.

i've heard from other ppl that you're a "flirt".
& i still jokingly said you're definitely not one, but now im beginning to feel that way.
i justified for you.
nah, i think its just my auto sensors. xDDD
you're not right? (=

& i didnt mean to dao you today lah.

1) outside the soccer field, i didnt reply you cos i was thinking HOW to reply. cos you ask me why i sad. then when i wanna open my mouth to answer you, you turned & walk away. sorry anyways.

2) you took one step forward, i took one step backwards, you took another step forward, i took another step backwards, & then i disappeared. NOW, i didn't even noe i was moving backwards UNTIL huimin tell me k? so i didnt mean it. i guess it just came natuarally or, just like what huimin say, i was.. subconcious. sorry.

3) i gave you that "glare"cos! i THINK i was jealous. i don wanna hide anymore. yes, frens, but still. sorry.

4) i didnt wanna show you my report slip cos i feel ignored. sorry.

whatver it is, im sorry for everything okay.
i'll stop all this nonsense thing frm, tmr. & so this will be the last post abt all this nonsense. the rest of the posts is only gonna contain sweetness(:
so bear with me for one last time. lemme finish my race & get a breather.

if i didnt sit beside you today, i think that's it. poof!

do you noe, even when we conf, i very much wanted to hang but i din?
forget it, thats the past.
i will stop complicating stuff, afterall the sunflower's still in my room.. <3

okay anyway, today's the sports carnival or whatever shit.
we lost all three matches, double boo.
but im not sad abt it, cos we really played well. =/
mark the centre, jeremy the goalkeeper, me the erm goalattack, michelle the wingdefence, sharmane the wingattack, astrid the goalshooter/goaldefence, asha the goalshooter/goaldefence.
for the first match, honestly i was distracted. VERY. sorry guys.
i acted like some crazy maniac shouting across the court, telling siddharth to not obstruct. xD
& i was dang agitated for whatever reasons. so we lost, to 2h.
against 2e was slightly better, i scored one despite victor the 1.8m guy defending me, together with the robert guy. (:
thanks to mark for calling me lagger. (:

i think the best match played is against 2f.
me&asha worked so well. & astrid was fine being goaldefence. she shld have played that position from the beginning lah. =/
& then! i scored another one. hoho.

i still rmb we use to lose to e, f, h: 9-0, 10-0.
so paisehhhhhhhhhhh.
but now its, 2-1, 3-1, 2,0
so much better.
oh& jeremy you played well lah.
!!mark too. should continue with the netball craze xDDDD

everything ended at 6, & i reached home with astrid & michelle at 6.35 to prepare for tuition, feeling dang dang tired. we rushed thru dinner& shower, took a cab & reach there abt 7.35. obviously late. -.-

surprisingly, i did all my work in tuition, keeping rather quiet.
i don noe why too, first time ryan lai never call me to shut up. cos most of the lessons i will be blabbering about nonsensical stuff like, him? xDDD
heehee. i prefer the quiet me(:
more mature. HAHA.

after tuition, me, astrid, mich&huimin went to macs to have supper. everyone was super retarded except for me. lolololol. somehow or rather, the topics of fries came up.
astrid took a super long fry, & a super short one, & said: this is mingyan & michelle.
haha. then it went on & on, going arnd all the couples, but it somehow didnt get to mine.

from that, we start to shape out ppl's hair with the fries.
like ryan's mushroom head& *somebody*'s hair. (:
i was eating my chicken wing & laughing so hard at the same time. huimin choked. you can almost guess how spastic astrid was being. i forgot abt my emo-ness & joined in. i took my chicken wing & pointed to its end, and asked them to guess who's hair it belongs to. so on & so forth. thanks alot man astrid.

its kinda long alrdy isnt it?
yes, can tell i had a long day right.
im so tired, so i shall stop here.
i think im the most tired earthling now.
tata(:

P/S: astrid, gdluck for yr relay(:

wow wow wow wow wow wow.

i was rushing out my maths holiday at first but i just felt that i had to blog or i'll burst. i have no idea why im acting like that. i just have to stop or im gonna end up with a whole mess that i can't handle. often in life, you have to do things that you don wanna do. yeah, people have been trying to tell me that i aint that bad & all those crap but its my own problem. i can overcome my stage. i just feel so bad for being this way. sorry man. im just so weird, i act in a way that even me myself don understand, which is just so sucky can. ):
don sms me cos i doubt i'll reply. at least for today. sorry peeps.
i might even close down my blog.
its useless.

#004`` Me&you ت says:
haha we have always been okay what. i seldom let him on what i feel. that day, what i told u, he never get to hear it, & i think he never will.

i don't know what made me say that, but i just did. ;D
today's fun. purely fun. we didn't get any work done, but oh well.

very lazy to blog, refer to huimin's & ariel's blog.
dam sleepy. gdnite. (=

-
im going crazy
i wanna be your lady
i've been thinking lately
just you & me
yes, we can make it

(P/S: it's not as if i dunno whr your 1.5k went =/
i wonder you'll ever get jealous =//
it's not as if i don noe your X is better than me =///)

Dang Windows Live Messenger!
It crashed on me.
Stupard lah. I've been trying to go online for the past 35mins.

Serenity, Tranquility.
SHUT UP.
pfft.

Astrid;Me



Me;Huimin



Me;Justin
Hey, as friend only hor =X



HuiMin;Me;Ariel



Me;Astrid

I just got off the phone with Evan Cheok.
Im so shocked that he called me & I miss him.
All those time we sat beside each other in the AVA room fighting PSLE. & the way he twirls his hair while he does his test paper (altho he never knew =X). He's so gay! Sec2 ah, tsktsk, still like that. xD

Evan: Eileen is such a weird name, why do you have it anyway? I mean, Eileen, you know.
Eileen: You shut up lah, Eileen is unique okay.
Evan: What? Unique, it's an insult to the word =/
Eileen: I know you jealous, so shut up. It's still unique anyway, not much people actually own them.
Evan: Okayokay, fine, unique in a funny way.
Eileen: Then why do you still use the word unique?
Evan: Okayokayokay, let me explain this to fools. When you talk about water, it's water. Water Vapour is water vapour, different from water even tho it still got the "water" word. Okay, different state! I can't believe you actually passed your PSLE! Okay, Im sure you don't get it, another example, Rain, is rain, it's different from raincoat which is actually a coat that protects you from the rain, get it? You lagger!
Eileen: WAA, fine lah, think you VS good lah. GO AWAY LAH YOU.
Evan: Haha, okay, now, let me test you. Hmm, on what. COMPUTER STUFF. Aiyaa, I bet you don't know them.
Eileen: uh huh.
Evan: What's afk? brb?
Eileen: Away from keyboard, be right back? No challenge. Heh! =P
Evan: Fine, lmao? rofl?
Eileen: Erm, laugh my ass off? Roll on the floor & laugh?
Evan: Wa, not bad, stupid people do stupid stuff. HMPH. You jinglyjinglyding.
Eileen: Stop calling my chinese name. I forgot yours btw, so whats your?
Evan: JingTing.
Eileen: JingTing.. Hmmm. (writes down somemore)
Evan: Eh, you damn lag eh!
Eileen: EH! That's my chinese name! You..

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Eileen: Eh, Evan, tell you something okay. You don't be shocked okay. I miss you.
Evan: WOW. I'm so touched. *sobsob*
Eileen: Haha, you should be.
Evan: WHY SHOULD I BE. FOR PEOPLE LIKE YOU.
Eileen: Walao, fine, I noe you don't miss me but no need like that right.
Evan: If not, why am i calling you now? Brains please.
Eileen: Oh.

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Evan: So you have *** before?
Eileen: *shocked, very* You're...
Evan: So you have lah.
Eileen: No of cos not, you siao ding dong. I will be having underage ***, & I might get unwanted pregnancy, am i really that dumb to you? Huh.
Evan: Oh, no lah, I thot you kena raped before.
Eileen: *nolink* Oh yah man.
Evan: It's unpredictable!

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Evan: *look at my blog title: I believe I can fly ;D* I believe I can fly huh?
Eileen: Yah.
Evan: Jinglyjinglyding, show me your wings.
Eileen: *ROFL*

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Eileen: You joining campus?
Evan: No, siao, you are ah?
Eileen: Considering.
Evan: Wow. Aiya go join lah, you'll actually get moral support from people like me.

((:


I swear his damn funny. Haha. Thanks Evan, for entertaining me ;D

So back to today.
I went to Jalan Batu, St Hilda's CC or something like that to obtain CIP hrs. Hee hee.
We were suppose to teach kids, aged from 5-12yrs old calligraphy.
It was fun! Very.
Will upload photos later. =/
(I hope)

12, we left that place for TM.
At the MRT train, Mark suddenly appeared from nowhere. Haha, at first we only saw Elbert. But once we spotted Mark, we ran from one end to the other end of the train just to find him! (Sorry Elbert!) Hoho, I bet his friends thot we were some crazy despo girl, cos me & huimin keep stalking him in TM. =XX
I mean, Mark is cute. ;D

Me, Ariel & Huimin went to take neoprints first.





Halfway thru decorating, Ariel had to leave.
She called just to tell me that, she saw Theodore. WTH.
& then neoprints with Mark:

I ate:

1) 4chickenwings

2) 1 packet of nasi lemak

3) 1 cup of bubble tea

4) 100 grams of Famous Amos cookies

I bought:

1) 1 toe ring, with a butterfly on top (Aries)

2) 2 bookmarks

3) 1 wooden thing

4) 1 white bangle (Aries)

5) 1 rainbow nail polish

<33s>

1) Huimin

2) Ariel

3) Justin

4) Mark

5) JunHui

6) Roderick, the child.

This will be one of the day I love so much.
Another gem in my memory. ;D

(p/s: blogging actually serve as a pathway to your inner thoughts! i just realised! xDD)

Hello.
Im sitting at home waiting for Astrid to reach my house to do the d&t proj. ;D

My life is so complicated. =/
& I have concrete evidence to support this inference okay.
Ask either Huimin or Mark.

It's not as if my life ain't complicated enough with my mother lecturing me now & then. I think she's gonna have menopause real soon. Or either that she just miss my father who's in Italy now. But that doesn't mean she can take it out on me okay. I'm her daughter & she's my mother. No mother would do that to their own blood-related daughter okay. The way my friend's mother react is so different from you can. It's not my fault.

As if that wasn't enough. There had to be someone to screw everything up even more. Or stupid things thats coming your way. I was alrdy emo-ing. Yet! Someone had to sent me that kind of message. & I thought the whole school knew. Oh, & why would I ditch him for you. You're just some despo guy whom I thot I knew.

& YOU! You could have reacted in a much more sweet way upon hearing that right. pfft. I mean if you don't care, that's fine, but you could, at the very least pretend to care. Okay maybe you actually care, you're lost & all. Okay, I accept. Just.. enjoy your camp.

I'm sorry that I'm actually acting this way but I can't help it.
Just like what Huimin said: I make their life so boring.
'cos my life is so screwed up! Or complicated in a sense.
I think I'm gonna delete this post before he comes back, 'cos I don't wanna affect him.
But for now. This shall serve as a tool for me to vent all my frustration.
Deleting this post actually make everything pointless.

But still..
I miss him.
3days seem eternity.
& it seems as if my world only revolves around him.
I suppose that's love?

My father just called me from Italy.
It's 5am there. =/
He's going to Austria then to Switzerland, so he won't be back till April!
So unfair.
& I kinda miss him.

Today's such a boring day.

I'm stuck here at home doing nothing.
Hah, & thats why I'm posting.
I'm so tired that I woke up at 2 today.
8to10am, my phone was vibrating all the way.
I dunno who the heck called. I couldn't care less. So, i didn't pick up.
I woke up at 9. Received 2 message, Michelle&Sharmane. -.-
Then went to bed again.
Woke up at 12.30.
Theodore's message.
Replied then slept again.
Another message: 2pm
Grr. I gave up. & thats why i'm awake now. But hey, I ain't complaining.


I really was tired. Very. I almost slept at the street soccer court ytd.
I'm sooooo bored. I desperately need some entertainment.
I went online. Talked to Jonah, Jones Jameson, MK or whatever shit.
He pangsehed me for MQ.
& asked me to talk to Theodore instead. Bock him lah!
I will rmb him & his monkey face. pfft. HEE HEE.


Anyway, I've been thinking lately.
I think I will really miss alot of people once I finish my 4years in TK.
Everyone will be separated. Well, not all but mostly.
It's just so funny. Same faces in sec1&2, then you'll be streamed to different classes.
Some stay, some leave.
Sec3&4, another 2 years with the familiar faces. Yet, another kind of bonding.
Finally, 4 years gone. Just like that.
& then everyone will be in their seventeens. orgh.
Time flies.
I definitely will miss 1g/2g.
Some people like Mark, Dean, Qixiang, Jonah & of 'cos Theodore ;D
Jonah the Monkey king, his hee hee, & all those crap. Haha, & that time he fell of his chair just cos of me laughing. ohmy, those time. Haha, his vondutch cap!
Mark, & his "YOU SUCK!". His craze for naruto, ransegan & orange. & blahs. I swear his dang retarded but, i like -.-
Qixiang & his erm, xiaowei.
Dean & his super-rebonded & his ahbeng walk.
Theodore, hah, no need to say. xD

All those time we spent together. Be it in school, outside school, camp or whatever.
& not forgetting the girls.


Ariel & her eyeliner. -.-
Her emo-self, no, OUR emo-self. I will never forget her: Hey, you okay?
& the next thing she'll do is just sit down beside you & hear you rant & rant. No a word said or asked. Man, I love her lah. We'll just sit together & emo about out own stuff. We seldom quarrel. Yupp, I realised. ;D



Hoho. Huimin & her puma bag. I love her lots. Even tho, there's lots of conflict in between. On top all that, I'm speechless about her. <3
She kinda, mould me into a stronger person?

Sharmane, Hah. I didn't know she had troubles till ytd. =/
All I could do is hear her rants? It shocked me for a while. Right, I shan't elaborate.
Sharmane ahh, sicko? YES. She's horrible. It's like every second, every minute. HEH HEH.
& she's a perfectionist. Her work ah. kk, not even her work, she also want it to be perfect. Perfect example: my d&t. O.o
Oh & she's my gaowaiyu dui xiang. hee hee

Michelle. I bet she forget about me liao lor. Now that she've got _______.
Haha. Jk. I don't interact with her much lah. Now that we've got common topics to talk about, we interact alot more lately. Yah, she & her beau/dandy. =/


ASTRID! the retard on my right! To the right~ To the right!
I will never forget her. I think I've told her that before. I will never never forget how retarded she is. Never man! We always piss mdm faridah, ms teo & mrs yap off. We yank & yank whole day in class. & we never stop. Haha. & when I'm down & all. Her fav line: Everything's gonna be fine. Or she'll start her lemon feng, tokyo drift edition. No matter what, I always fail to emo with her around. Yes. We once fought, but we made up.



& there's people like Asha, Leon, the netball team.
I wish I can continue thanking all the people in my life. But I realise i typed a whole long post already. HAHA. ciaos.

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You see me for who I am
& Im still standing strong

Today's such a hectic day.
I didn't do my art, d&t and chinese jian bao.

so i stayed back with shar to do d&t.
but before that, I had to spend time colouring art (which turned out fugly -.-) & doing jianbao.
so glad i have shar. !!!! i mean it.
we wasted abt 3 hours on d&t! *faints*
but its only me doing, shar was just.. helping, walking & playing!
she loves to solder (whichever you spell it).

then, i watched people play soccer. xDDDD
first time in my life i sat there at the staircase watching people play alone. O.O
im kinda not use to the language the guys used. but ohhh well.

felt so weird when she hugged me.
i don even noe what for. xD
for act? i don noe.
im not trying to infer anything here.
BUT that's what i heard. ;D

my dad's in italy enjoying himself now. boooooooooo ):
miss him.

im so freakin tired.
yet not sleepy. =/

ohhh.
i just realise that alot of ppl read my blog today.
its just that.. they don't tag.
its so scary.
i think i should consider closing down my blog =/

they noe me but i don't noe them. O.o
she waved& said hi to me twice today,
but WHO THE HELL is she?

now u get what i mean.
freaky~

I can't smile without you. (:

seriously.
i can't believe i did that lah.
i've learnt not to be emo cos it really affects the people around you.
it's like, you wanna cheer that person up but you just don't noe how. (especially if that person is important to you.) that helpless.
maybe writing a note helps.... i hope.

should have just approached him & listen to what he gotta say or just sat beside him right.
easier said than done.
many times i wanted to but just couldn't.
all i did was. emo too. =/
foolish. stupid. crazy.

& to make things worse.
results.
lousy results.
i don't really wanna talk about them.
& i kinda dread trainings now.





















you're irreplaceable.

i got sunflowers today(:
how cool is that?
heh heh.
okay, everyone knows. its comfirmed.

anyway.
i got maths, eng & hist paper today.

maths: 41.5/50
eng: 18.5/30
history: 12/25 (wth!)

im so happy with my maths. HEE HEE.
my first A1 for maths. (=
erm, history. i didn't study cos i was emo-ing, expected but still. WTH!
eng.. always beeen the same. so yah.

everyone is like all paired up.
heh heh. ahem mark & ahem shar.
walaoo. i was so extra just now.
they were like exchanging school bags & talking to each other walking dang slow.
i was so bright. =/

oh yah. sooooory ariel. my bad my bad. )=
haha. i dreamt of me, shar & astrid walking for the camp's night walk ytd night.
it was so funny.
during the night walk, shar was like singing the school song while astrid was saying her prayers out loud.
i was dang scared even tho we are like holding hands.
i kept saying: just keep moving, just keep moving.
haha. come to think of it now, i wanna laugh lah. =D

to the right to the right xD

official congrats to michelle (:
HEE HEE.

just leave me alone okay? ):
i freakin lack security can.
& i told you knew ):


reply to tags:

huimin: yeah! camp sucks! but u had a harder time. hmm. yah, nvm, its all over. (:
dean: haha. yeah. that kinda make sense. HEE HEE xD
alison: yah lah. i had to pay more than that amount. Im not a singaporean. =/
cheryl: yes! we want refund! we want refund! we want refund! ;D
mark: yah. hey. wanna complain? we go ask for refund! you didnt had to pay as much as me k?
boonmay: haha you mean you want ellis to be your instructor ah? he keep bagua-ing & unnnnnnderwearing-ing. LOL. your instructor dang strict =X
we were suppose to do the high elements untill the rain came =/
KSD: lol. who are you?
weilin: haha yeah. his shoe stink to high heaven =/ love ya too <3>asha: haha. yeah. i agree too so you ain't mean (:

im back from camp.. finally.
to think i still thought camp would be fun. grrr. blooooody weather.
it kept raining & raining. like wth lah.
we didnt even get to do abseiling (i dunno how to spell), rafting & rock climbing. practically, we didnt get to do any high element. -.-
pfft. wasted our precious money.
& the food given was like sooooo.. hah, i shall be nice. ;D

due to the rain, our tents which we painstakingly pitched collapsed.
our bags got wet, so did our clothes. i was so pissed. there was no dry clothes to change into! everyone felt like crying. mygod.
&&&&&!
we were only given 2 minutes to shower, 3girls to one cubicle. wth wth wth!
there's like not enough time lah. if we took longer than 2minutes. muahaha, they'll open the curtain & see you naked. so everyone gotta rush.
& the toilet is so freakin' dirty with insects & blahs. the thought of it just disgusts me. blek.
huimin cried lah, cos she just couldnt get use to everything. well, i can't blame her.

soooo, the tents broke/collapsed.
for the last night, we gotta sleep at the conference room.
air-con. hooray. not.
my sleeping bag was freakin' flooded, so no way i could sleep in that.
so kind soul joshua lent me his. which is. also wet. -.-
but anyhow, i made do with it, sharing with ariel.
at night, it got real cold. & you can guess what happened lah.

all right.
besides all these bad stuff that took place.
there's still good things of cos.
like our class bonded even more thru the nitrocrossing, spiderweb & blahs.

hah, the only thing i like abt the camp is.. CAMPFIRE. (:
& maybe, our instructor, ellis. (:
he & his ba gua. hilarious.

oh & that ball game, its stupid yet fun. haha.

everyone said its dang obvious.
but.. i somehow just don't get it.
im not complaining tho ;D
hey, im in bliss. <3